Dear future husband

Dear Future Husband,

I want you—all of you. I want to look into your eyes when I wake up, every day, every night. I want to lie beside you in bed and snuggle for warmth. I want to feel your sleep-laden arms around me, feeling me up in your dreams. I want you to wake me up in the middle of the night to have your fill of me.

I want you—all of you. I want to know the tiny details of your everyday life. I want to know who told you what, who made you feel what, what you saw on the way to work, and what you thought while you nibbled on the sandwich during lunch. I want you to share every single detail of your life, until it becomes mine. All of it, until it fills me up—my body, soul and mind.

I want the security of your arm as my blanket. And I want the freedom of our travels. I want to feel the smooth skin and sooty smell of your body against mine. And I want to feel your lashes blink against my cheeks as you fall asleep.

All this and more, until your life becomes mine, and mine yours.

I want to carry the warm, invisible stamp on me—the mark that says I am a taken woman, owned in entirety. That I’m a woman conquered.

A woman, who finally, willingly, chose to admit defeat and surrendered her life at the feet of happiness, of domesticity. That I’ve been touched so deeply, that no one other touch matters.

I want to love you until you’re my sun, my sin, and my heaven. And I want you to love me back. I want you to smile into my eyes and laugh at my jokes, poor as they may be. I want you to share your dreams and your fears, your likes and your dislikes, the things that you love and those that fill you with awe. And I want to take those and make them mine, until I practically see through your eyes.

You see, I was once a woman who kept a part untouched, hidden away from the world. I was once a woman who sought to hide in frivolous flings, uncaring and distant. I was a woman who didn’t appreciate the full intensity of love. I once ran away from all this.

Not anymore. Not with you.

Today, I want to give you my all, and more. Today, I want to be with you. Today, I am combustible, and only you know how to light me up. Today, I am yours. Today, I am you. 

I Love You

There is no one else on this Earth I would trade you for, and I know and pray that you are part of God's plan for me. Your family, your friends. I think the best thing about mutually falling in love with someone is that no matter how hard it gets, you know you’re never going to fall. I promise, mon amour, that I am here.

I Accept You For You

I can still look back and remember all the little things about you that no one else would know. Your quirky hyper laugh. That's just a one of my favorite unique things about you. I think the most important thing about you, is that you are absolutely perfect to me. You have accepted me for everything that I am, and every mistake I have made, and that is something I always want to do for you.

I Will Never Give Up On You

I will never give up on you; I will never give up on us. I will never let anyone tell me ever again that you are not right for me, because I know better than anyone else exactly what I love about you and I know I don’t need validation from anyone. Your smile, your hugs, your kisses are just some of my favorite things and I would choose those for the rest of my life, any day.

Love is...

love is happiness...
love is smiling when you hear that person's voice...
love is the butterflies in your tummy no matter how many times you see that person...
love is when you look at them and smile for no reason...
love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly...
love is painful..
love is hard...
love is sacrifice..
love is sadness..

I also remembered loving everything about him ncluding his flaws.. Friends told me that we met in
a very spontaneous way.. And then everything happened so fast..

I don't care, I Love him..

I Don't want to.

I don't want to conclude. I'm hearing things, seeing things.. But, I don't want to overthink. I don't want to think negatively to things that I'm not sure of. Heart, pls. don't make me feel weak.

Suupeer Looong.. And a bit cheesy.. Just a bit!

Most of the time, I'm a super chill girl that says it how it is. I'm straight up with people when it comes to how I feel. I don't know what happened, but ever since you walked into my life, you completely changed the game for me. Obviously, by now, I have had many different experiences when it comes to having feelings for someone, but this is so different. At this point in our lives, in relationships, we either break up or we get married. How crazy is that?

I've had my heart broken too many times, and that really sucks. I've started to guard my heart and wait for something incredibly special, and I'm hoping that it is you.

Sometimes, I act like an annoying girl that leads herself on more than you do. I plan things out in my head and prepare for the future. I get so excited for you to meet my family, spend holidays together, and experience so many things together. I don't know why I do, I just can't help it. I enjoy being around you and I see myself being with you for more than you have even thought about. Sometimes I just have too many feelings that I want to share, but you'll just have to go with it. You're going to have to accept me as I am, even when I cry about small things or want to spend as much time as possible with you.

You may not like yourself, but I do. You talk down on yourself, but you don't even understand how much I value you in my life. We may have only known each other for a few months out of our lives, but I wish you would see how important you are to me. I believe that you have so much going for you and that you're going to go so far in your life. I just hope that maybe, just maybe, I could be there to witness that.

Tell me that you don't reciprocate those feelings, I just need something that proves to me that you're worth my time and effort. I can't take another heartbreak, and I pray that you won't be the next one.

Untitled

Someone asked me today if I have plans on leaving him? And this is what I answered: No I don't have, not even a bit. I don't have any reasons or maybe if I have, I will choose not to. I love him that much.

Regrets

…someone asked me if I regretted loving him..
So, this is what I answered:
 “I have fallen for this one of a kind man. Oh wait, let me scratch that. I LOVED this man.. I know, it sucks. But I never regretted loving him in the first place, well…maybe I did.”
I did regret loving him. But what I regret most was saying that I regretted it. And having to say it again here. But hey… do you regret meeting me? Do
you.. regret loving me..? Do you ?

confess

Love is seeing an imperfect person
perfectly..
…and he is far from being perfect. But
there’s something about him that
captivates my heart. What’s so good about
him anyway? Is it his radiant smile? His
charisma? I don’t know. But.. I’m falling.. hard.